Yesterday i broke into tears, somehow i know we cant be together. He say he really need the next 2 weeks to go and think, requested me not to sms him. Is he saying all this to really try to salvage our realtionship..i wonder, i try to believe. Sometimes, i dunno what to do without him~ Yesterday drp by his hse pass him some herbal tea, but i put outside only~ then walk home from yishun(45min). I know i am silly but if sillyness can touch or salvage a relationship, i rather be silly. He say he dunno what he feel about me, he wants me to be happy and care about me, but he dunno whether this is love... i dun understand what he is saying anyway.. he says that he doesnt feel the enthusiasim to meet up with me (who would have after so many years tgt??) Sometimes i feel lonely, somehow i just dun like to tell ppl my sadness cuz i dn really like to make people sad, i rather make them happy~ Zzz anyway hope i can dun sms or call him till 24 Nov - the day that darkness will daunt me >.<
To my dearest someone (you know who you are):
Dun torture yourself like this ever AGAIN!! You really make us feel sad~We always be there for you whenever you are sad yet you always end up doing the same things. I am really angry yesterday, angry that you hurt yrself, angry thjat you nv care about our feelings. I am so scared with what you did. DUN EVER DO THIS AGAIN!!! For ppl to love and care about you, 1st thing you need to do is show ppl you are worth the love and not hurt yrself. We will be there for you always. <333 Muacks!!!
Michelle blogged @ 12:58 PM
