I broke down in office today for the 1st time. I was feeling very low with my sickness not recovered and having my menses make my emotion further unstable. To make it worse, my colleague show me attitude and everyone chase me for their stuff. I tried to control my tears, but it just flow non-stop, to a point i even felt breathless. Cao Yan was consoling me throughout, she even close the door and bring me warm water. My mood was at the lowest point. I knew I wouldnt be able to stop my tears if i continue staying, so I told my boss that i will go see a doctor later and went home. Thank you Bro,Mummy and Baby for so worrying about me.
I really dont understand why people has to be so nasty. Just because you are feeling down, doesnt give you the right to show your temper to me. Do you know that I wasnt feeling good as well? Why call to ask me for pay when my manager already send out email that it will be credited is on Tuesday. Why listen to the rumour and start questioning me? Why is my workload so heavy, and my manager can't even help me cause she dont even know how to deal with my work? I cant't even seek help from anyone, my work is purely my work, no one there to assist even when i am not around. I am not gonna be soft-hearted anymore, no more HELP from me. Why do I have to help all of you, when most of you dun even think about my feeling? I need to face the reality and be more hard-hearted to those evil people.
P.S I just hope to get out of that place.
Michelle blogged @ 11:25 AM
